the trapeze swinger

^^^^ a song that means so much to me <3

i wish.

i just wish people would be happy for me… especially my friends. that’s really all i want. i’m happy… why can’t the people i’m closest to be happy for me too? i mean i understand people are worried about me and look out for me because they care about me, and i appreciate it, but i just want them to realize that i’m actually genuinely happy for the first time in almost 9 months. 

it is MY life, MY decisions, and ultimately MY business. i feel like i am smart enough and mature enough to make my own choices and learn on my own. in the end, it’s all on me, and me only, no one else. but who says it’s gonna end the way everything thinks/says it is? no one knows for sure what is going to happen or how people feel. 

i’m happy and i’m just gonna start doing the things that make me happy because i feel like everyone deserves to be happy. 

i don’t really know how to process all of this yet. yeah, i am scared… but i think it’ll all be worth it… i really do. 

<3

happy is probably the best word to describe me right now. i have been SO happy lately and i love it.  

sorry for the mushy, sappy stuff like this.. but i just can’t help it lately. 

you make me so happy. it’s unreal. i have no idea what you do to me, but it works. i know it’s been only a short while, but i’m already crazy about you. i’ve just fallen so hard, so fast, and i know i always say that, but that’s just how it happened. 

this all just feels so different, but in a good way. it’s so weird how alike we are… with the most random things too. i’m not really sure how all this will turn out but i’m so excited to see how it will. it’s an amazing feeling though, it really is, just to have someone like you in my life. i don’t feel like i have to change anything about myself to please you… and that’s all i can ask for. i already love our relationship. i can joke around and have fun with you, i can talk to you for hours and never get bored, i can just chill with you and have the best time, and you always make sure i am happy/okay.

everyone has been giving me the hardest time about us, but i honestly don’t care. i’m happy, you are happy, and we are so good for each other… and that’s all that matters.

you are the sweetest. you say and do the sweetest things for me and i am beyond thankful. you’re such an amazing person and i am so lucky to be the one that is yours. you make me smile at my phone like an idiot and laugh constantly, you give me butterflies, you make me feel special, you even make me nervous sometimes, in a good way. 

so thank you for being the best and making me so happy. you’re already so important to me and i hope you know that. 

everything about you is perfect to me and i could not ask for anyone better.

i’m not quite sure what i ever did to even deserve someone like you, but i’m so glad i have you.